Thirstdays

Why am I finding it so hard to express myself this morning I am so much better than ever before and still I doubt my own ability. I am holding on to things that are in the past when I should just let go. I am hearing what they say and I just can't make a sound, but why should I listen to the problems of others? Okay I got that out of my sytem and it is Thursday I like this girl and she is so far away never even met her but her smile is just so contagious. I am a very difficult person and also very picky when it comes to the standards I set for myself. As a guy I have a picture of the woman I want in my head I have designed her in my mind all the qualities I want, but I sometimes forget that I won't find that specific woman perhaps some of her qualities, but not all of them. Where do you draw the line in terms of leniency as to what you can sacrifice in what she lacks according to your perfect woman you had been looking for. I am 27 had only one relationship and it was bad for me and I knew it when I got into it but I still went ahead and jumping haed first into the deep end off the cliff with sharks circling in the water below instead of just dipping my toe's into the shallow end. I am still in search of that woman and I know that dreaming or thinking about her won't bring her into existence so I have to go out there and test the waters. I am generally a lazy when it comes to relationships I enjoy my time as it is just that my time maybe I am just not ready or will never be maybe I have another calling? I am off Later Bloggers!!! Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GRANNY 98 YEARS WILL I EVER See it?