I just need to stay focused and keep being disciplined

Sometimes a fresh start is all someone needs or even a change me scenery. I hate come to realise that me still being at good staying with my parents is poisonous to my health, my fathers drinking is driving everyone insane and all those other reasons stated in my previous update on the blog also forms part of it. I hate alot that I can do and want to do, but the fact that I am here holds me back and it doesn't help me in anyway. I have never had a safety net like any of the other kids my dad has never strived for anything in his life we still staying in this crap hole so I think it is time for me to make my own safety net because I don't want to end up like him, so I say it is time for the loner to start walking and leave it all behind and start a fresh... I don't know where or when I an I am going to be starting a fresh, but I am going to have to do it soon.