Saturday

Okay so last night and yesterday was really crazy, had way too much to drink got home around 18:15, ate and then passed out... I am glad I didn't go out last night in retrospect, it all seems a little juvenile, so this morning I have decided that I am going to dissapear of the grid fo a while maybe a year...

I am hoping that some opportunity will arise somewhere out of Rustenburg, if not will have to look for something, I am leaning more in the direction of a travelling job, I am also planning on studying again so God speed and here' is to success in the new year...

So today on this Christmas Eve, I commit myself to disapearing and focusing on my dreams for a while, even if it be in Rustenburg

Discipline is Currency

I am super bored

I have stopped drinking for like the 100th time and I am looking for something to fill that, Friday and Saturday night drinking binges that I use to go on, which was really juvenile if I look back on them...

I have joined the gym and did pretty well, I try and do a 12km run and increase it by a km everynight, which will be hard to maintain since the gym only stays open til 9 each night... I am doig tis in part for my soccer fitness and also to help me with y bucket list. I am planning to save u money for a trip to Ecuador to go climbing sme mountains in the snow, it is hard atthe moment with the burning urge to hit the party scene and really let loose, but I am trying my best to stay occupied...

My only friend right now are my dogs and my cats and they seem to be just as depressed as I am, I resigned my job recently because of the lack of training and the people gloating somuch in office. I have sensed that they are sort of froming a click against me in the sense that, I am not of a faourable colour, but hey small things. I have noticed that they are really low on self esteem and seem to make themselves feel better on my account, well that's alright, I am quite strong an durable so that helps me be positive.

This will be my opportunity to do something fresh with my life something new and exciting that's why I love my life boring or otherwise...

Anywya I am out let me see what I can do for the night, maybe get interative with some girls, not like that

Wednesday again time is really flying, year is almost finished again, sitting at work bored as hell. I am in another career change again, I am working as a filmmaker at the moment, which is fun and exciting learning alot of new things, editing filming, putting appropriate music to what's on film. I am at this point in the year where, I am getting a bit out of control. I went to a halloween bday party this weekend and got a bit out of controle, so which means it is time for one of those sabbaticals again where I take some time off the bottle. I think this time I will try it over a few weeks as I don't really drink during the week. I am finding it really hard to be motivated with my training and I am somewhat inconsistent in all areas of life, sleeping, working, eating and also training schedule. I think it is time to embark on a lengthy disciplined training regime starting today.... Happy Movember Everybody

Half Year Gone

Damn it's been a long time since I posted over here, well as far as life is concerned it, is cold(due to the fact that it is winter) and it is really slow,but patience is a virtue which I am trying to master.

The soccer has been slow, but I have done some training, but not recently and I am excited to get back when I am healed from my cold, so that is an interesting prospect since I still have my eye on a pro career next year...

I am also in the process of planning an event and I recently bought a truck(bakkie) for my business I am planning to start and I am hoping and working towards that, so

One Goal(Soccer pro career)

Two events to help raise the funds to do achieve my main goal...

Well good to write again after almost, well too long